lots have happened the past few weeks.
got pissed. felt happy/sad/lonely/excited.
been kinda emotional :/
keep telling myself to move on.
got my results back. wasn't that good.
improved in everything except my languages ROAR.
havn't been feeling motivated to do anything. going to school has been more draggy than usual. taking my own sweet time to do stuff before school.
why can't they just let be who i am. who i want to be.
why can't they let me do what i wanna do.
why must i do what they want me to do?
why must i be what they want me to be?
i can now truly conclude that my life has been built on lies.
everything is just bullshit.
i need to vent my anger on something like my wall.
but i can't find my boxing gloves.
sometimes i find that i just don't belong.
i want to find my own way y
know but it never works out.
if i actually make myself do my work but i'll forget to bring it to school or i can never find it.
nothing works out.
been aching a lot too. all my old injuries are acting up again.
sometimes it surprises me how many injuries i have had & i'm like young.
but thinking about it. it doesn't really surprise me at all.
can't believe i poring out my sorrows on my blog which is probably dead.
such a windy night.
amazing how the wind can make you feel.
just sitting on the beach. calming. my parents just don't get that.
probably because they're workaholics.
they can't just sit on the beach and be happy and contented with life and where they've been
i just don't get them.
you don't need to be rich to be happy.
you just have to be contented. that's all
why can't they just get that.
just like a good song, if you're contented that it's nice you can listen to it over and over agin and never feel bored of it. maybe it's just me
guess i'll never understand.
that's also probably why i never want to grow up.
what so good about being an adult?
sure you get freedom and all but most adults are hypocritical, and bias, and everything i don't want to be. no offence to some people.
this is just who i am.